许多年之后,han依旧记得东村那间小小的卧室,条纹图案的墙纸微微泛黄,下雨的时候要在地板上放两个脸盆,几个钟头下来就能攒起小半盆雨水,北面有扇狭长的窗,对着一条两车道的小马路,靠窗放着一张铁床,米灰色的床单没有花纹,看起来完全不像一个女孩子睡觉的地方。
那个六月的深夜,他第一次躺在这张床上。g在黑暗里笑着对他说:“这是张下流的床。”因为身下那只旧床垫里生锈的弹簧在他们做爱时发出难以掩盖的声响。那一夜之后,不知有多少次,他和g一起在这张床上入睡,又独自一个人醒来,身边的被单上留着一个浅浅的身形,他总是喜欢把手放在那个凹陷处,仿佛仍能感觉到她身体的余温。有时候,枕头上倒覆着一本她正在读的书,翻到她最喜欢的章节,旁边用铅笔写着她自己译成的汉语。
有时候是莎士比亚:
let me not to the marriage of true minds
admit impediments. love is not love
which alters when it alteration finds,
or bends with the remover to remove:
o no! it is an ever-fixed guary
that looks on tempests and is never shaken;
it is the star to every wandering bark,
whose worth's unknown, although his height be taken.
love's not time's fool, though rosy lips and cheeks
within his bending sickle's compass come:
love alters not with his brief hours and weeks,
but bears it out even to the edge of doom.
if this be error and upon me proved,
i never writ, nor no man ever loved.
如果心的结合是委曲求全的,我宁愿不要,
如果随境遇改变而改变,
或是因世事变迁而曲折,
爱也就不是爱了。
爱应该是永恒不变的航标,